It seemed very much that...I'm all alone to face you even though I received much advices throughout the course of knowing you...well i really don't know you know...it's a very confused kind of feeling...two days, twice online...you ignored...well...that's fine with me...in the midst of being extremely pessimistic about what might be happening...I still made room for an optimistic point of view...but I still made a safer decision...didn't bother you yesterday...today either...i suppose i won't be getting a pleasant surprise of a message from you today bah as usual...hah...everytime you're 'online'...how i wished to receive a message from you to tell me what's happened the past few sessions...haiz...well...tomorrow i shall try again...if it's still the way it is...then i guess i shall not persist...no doubt i won't be able to let go as quickly...i'll allow time to...and I'll always hope for a miracle...and that all my assumptions are untrue...